The Exhaustion is Exhausting
We LONG overdue for a check in + status update.
Hey family. It’s been a sec.
Imma be real, life been hitting the gas more and more every. single. day. Haven’t had the capacity to sit and stare at my computer to write a newsletter (bc I’ve been staring at my computer for other shit) and I is tired.
The current state of the U.S. is janky and exploitative af. While these are some of the fundamentals of this country, it is still wild to experience. And to see shit getting worst.
From student loans no longer having forgiveness, to corporations / companies outright refusing to hire folks if they’re Black or trans or queer or disabled (god forbid you’re all of em!!!), to the eggs being expensive af. To folks fighting each other instead of fighting these systems and institutions that were put in place to purposely harm and trigger us.
Don’t get me started on the job market. The homies know how exhausting, disrespectful, and condescending that mf has been. Imagine getting a job offer letter, doing all the onboarding, going thru multiple background checks, just to have the job yanked from you. For a reason that they made up yesterday. Not to mention having triple the experience they’re looking for.
The anti-blackness ain’t letting up, nor is the classism or the queer/transphobia. The collective is very depressed, but we don’t even have the time to process said depression, because we too busy tryna live.
It is so hard to live right now. I can’t even lie.
Being an artist lately has been a bit dystopian, too.
I have so much to say, but often feel overwhelmed to get said thoughts out my brain. Safety is a huge concern (always) but especially now. Witnessing folks being doxed, silenced, sh*d*wb*nned — it’s nasty work. I continue to remind myself the importance of trying, the importance of showing up, the importance of speaking up, but goddamn even that feels difficult these days.
Folks are scared (& with good reason).
Folks are drained (& with good reason).
I continue to remind myself that I am doing my best.
Even in the moments where the conditions are not the best.
Saying all this to say. . .I will be returning to this newsletter forum to give y’all the latest and greatest in my life / in general. But it’s gonna take some time. I have a lot of exciting shows and collaborations underway that I am hyped to share, but I gotta be real about the lack of capacity right now.
Meet back here later this month for a whole lotta goodies!
Confirmation: I am doing my best, and that is more than enough ꩜
555 Things to Share Before I Go
🎧 Just dropped a guest DJ mix for RBG Radio on OROKO RADIO, called S0NIC C0LLAGE. Big love to Vinson for the space to explore this quieter part of my practice. It’s rooted, rhythmic, and a lil cinematic — featuring R&B, Afropop, and diasporic sounds. [Listen here]
🎙️ My convo with Nikkiesha McLeod on When We See Each Other is live! A sweet return to the pod after 5 years — tune in and tell me what resonates. [LINK]
📸 Reminder that your sib models! I had the joy of working with Liam Woods on a Canva archival shoot, alongside my boo + other Black non-binary cuties. A Trans + BIPOC dream team.
🎤 NYC SHOW: Catch me live at Café Erzulie on Friday, June 27th with Dani Murcia + DONIS (DJ Set). Expect warm grooves, lush vocals, and good energy. [Grab your tickets now]
📣 MY BOOKS ARE OPEN + I AM READY TO BUILD WITH Y’ALL!
While I search for FT work, I'm available for creative gigs. Share this post or images with someone today — I’d love to build. Stability is the goal.
Looking forward to sharing more soon, sending ease family!